May 30th

Wow, two weeks huh? Well it does not seem it. Lets see in those two weeks I have been very busy. Have celebreated our 3 year anniversary, bought a house and bought our second shop!!!!!!! So things have been a bit hectic. Hopefully the shop will be open in 5 or 6 weeks and we should be in the house within a month as well!!
Have sold my computer and have just thrown this one together to get online.

How am I? I am ok I guess. I am excited and yet frightend, it is a huge loan we have taken and although affordable it will not leave a huge margin for error. So if all goes well things will be ok, if they dont I will need a place to sleep lol.

GreenBelt is coming up fast now, and I am trying to sort things out tog et there, but wuth disapearing off to the states for a month on 1st September I dont know how practical it will be to get to GB as well.

Still life is cool, if a lil bit scary.

Hope you are all well.

Oh and I got flurescent pink nails this week, with Omega symbols on them. Looks cool lol

15th May

Song lyrics to one of my fav songs at mo, yes I know it went number one in the charts, but we should not hold that against it.

I remember when, I remember, I remember when I lost my mind
There was something so pleasant about that phase.
Even your emotions had an echoIn so much space
And when you're out thereWithout care,
Yeah, I was out of touch
But it wasn't because I didn't know enough
I just knew too muchDoes that make me crazy

Does that make me crazy
Does that make me crazy
Probably
And I hope that you are having the time of your life
But think twice, that's my only advice
Come on now, who do you, who do you, who do you, who do you think you are,
Ha ha ha bless your soul
You really think you're in control

Well, I think you're crazy
I think you're crazy
I think you're crazy
Just like me

My heroes had the heart to lose their lives out on a limb
And all I remember is thinking, I want to be like them
Ever since I was little, ever since I was little it looked like fun
And it's no coincidence I've come
And I can die when I'm done

Maybe I'm crazy
Maybe you're crazy
Maybe we're crazy
Probably

Just speaks to me, dont know why.

I am ok, I think.

Be Well all.

13th May

GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD MORNING BLOGGERS!!!

How are we all today? I am in an interesting mood, relaxed, yet excited (I know contradictoin, but is how I feel). Work is interesting at mo, have a couple of problems with pc systems which are new, and spreading fast, so gives me something to focus on. I am relaxed because for once I do not feel stressed out, a kind of acceptance of situations at the moment have settled on me. Its not that I dont care I do, but whatever will be, wlll be. I can still work on the situations and not get stressed out by them.
Excited because in just a few hours my team will kick off in the FA cup final, takeing an early day from work and have some friends and clients coming round to watch the match. Come on West Ham!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So I am in a good place today. Well until WHU lose anyway lol.

A couple of things, firstly check out Pip Wilsons Blog, the link is over there>>>>>>>>>>>
Its a good read.

Secondly, if you have an emachine 210, please can you let me know if you have had any problems with power supply/motherboard, as there seems to be an amazing amount of them this month that have blown power supplys and popped motherboards as a result.

Thirdly, Be Well.

May 12th

Well, it is 9:02 in the morning and although I have sat here for 30 mins I have done no work. You know what? I don't care today either LOL. Not in a bad way, but in a good way. My son has a hospital appointment (nothing too serious), I have just sent an email to an old friend discussing the merits of men admitting they love each other and have spent 20 mins reading other peoples blogs.

Life could be very much worse.

I could live in a world where a megalomaniac ruled through terror and the threat of force, where we polluted our world to such a degree that the only way to fix it would be for mother nature to claim the world back and destroy the human race, or where the rich oppressed the poor. Thankfully tho we have America and George Bush to save us.........................

(A brief note for the 47% that voted for him, that's sarcasm)

Right, well, how am I? I am good.

And I am not mentioning anything about 11 year olds getting pregnant, I will save that one for tomorrow.

May 9th

Still stressed, infact now more than ever. Sheeeeeeeesh. Stopped smoking 24 hours ago, or maybe it is now more like 29. It has been fun. Judes stopped too, today we have spent most of it snapping at each other. I have been impossible to live with, my rage bubbles away beneath the surface like a hungry ogre ready to pounce, I have not felt like this in a long while now. It is not just the smoking, yes it aint easy giving up, but it has to be much more than that.
I want to cut, I want to hurt others as well, I want to pound people into the ground. Make them realise what pain is, what suffering could feel like. I want to do all this, but I wont. Well I may cut, I may bleed. I wont hurt others, not because I cant, or because I am afraid to, but because there is no need to. Others know what suffering is like, its just at the moment thats how I feel.

May 8th

Hello all, sorry been a while. Stress levels are high at the moment, can feel myself slipping. Business is struggeling, and looks like it is going down. Still challenges are what life is about. Takes up a lot fo my time. Possibility we might lose our holiday and deposits, wonderful. On a happier note, was Judes birthday this week, it was a wonderful couple of days, enjoying good company and good food. Judes enjoyed it, which is all that matters. (I enjoyed it too).
Looking forward to the FA cup final, my team will probably not win, but I have hope. UP the Hammers!!!!!.

Will be back soon

Hope all is well in cyber land