12th October

Wow, another two weeks have passed by, damn life sure does move fast sometimes. I wish I could let you all in on how I am feeling, but I feel if I inspect myself too deeply I may well just fall apart. This would not be helpful at the moment, so I wont, I will just say I am fine and smile sweetly and laugh in all the right places and no one will know. Well accept all the people who read this.
I am working with a company called Omega computers, we have decided to join both companies up together, this has been great but I have not stopped working since we done this, sometimes 18 hours a day or more. On top of that my Father in Law is still hanging on, although he is ill and this is putting a strain on the mrs. She is careing for him and I promised I would be there for her and at the moment I am not. So I have to deal with guilt for feeling I have let her down. I have to deal with her as at the moment I am a target for all the venom and feelings she has, I have to come to terms with the fact that a man I respect and admire is leaving this mortal coil. I am also supposed to do my uni work, fix everybodies pc in the neighbourhood, deal with our son, sort out mortgages as there is a possibility we are moving. Sort out fees for uni, I am also class rep, and christ knows what that brings apart from 30 whinging students about their lecturers.
Oh and I am not sleeping, but hey nothing new there.

Be well All